9.13.08 was the day you left this earth, and also the worst day of my life. You are my hero, you were the strongest women I ever met. You always would hold my hand so tight, and I would kiss it. Every Saturday you had a nail appointment with me. I would come to your room in the rest home, and paint your nails. I would put up a sign that said NONAS NAILS. You me and mom would play uno and you would cheat. haha. I remeber when I was younger I used to come over to your condo and sleepover, and make easy mac, and draw. It seemed just like average days, but little did I know, it wasnt going to last forever, nothing lasts forever. I remeber one time I was little, and I didnt want to sleepover because I was home sick. So my mom picked me up. I can honestly say that I regret it so much. And im goint to regret it for as long as I live, because I can never get that night back. You could say that I have become a stronger person. I was 12 when you passed away, and I saw it. I saw the priest give you your last prayers, and I saw you die. I saw my whole family cry, and I saw my mom become depressed. Thats a hell of alot to see when your only 12. I dont know if you were watching from above, but at your funeral, i kept holding your hand, because i thought that maybe I could bring you back to life or something, I dont honestly know. It was stupid of me. I have grown up so much. And i have changed alot to. You would be both proud and dissapointed in me. And im sorry if you are, but im not perfect. Alot has changed in my life, for the better and for the worst. I wish you were there to have helped me, because you always knew the right thing to say. I miss your smile, and your hugs, your hugs always made me feel better when I was down. I wish I could hold your hand again, you had such a tight grip:)
I miss you more then words can say,
Teamo forever and eternity,
You have been my best friend since as long as i can remember. We are complete oppsites for everything. Your smarter then me, your prettier then me, and you beat me at everything. I’m actually very jealous of you for many reasons. You personality is the best, you make your self laugh at everything and you dont act shy ever. You arent scared to take risks, or chances. You just go with the flow and do whatever you want. We cant really stay mad at eachother for long. We just look at eachother and start laughing. I wish I wasnt shy, and I wish I was more like you. But im always going be shy, and im never going to be like you. Your not scared of anyone, and you’ll put anyone in there place that needs it. You stick up for me, when im wronge. And your there, regardless to if were talking or not. I love making videos with you, more then anything. I sit there behind the camra, and you put on an act that makes me fall to the ground laughing. (Which is why the camra is always shaking. haha. I’v seen you at your absoulte worst, and it breaks me to pieces. When you cry, I cry. Your always there for me when i need you, and you don’t even know how much that means to me. If I hate someone, you hate them to. You have deffinitly got me out of my shell alot. Im alot less quiet then I used to be. We are inceprible, and I hope we always stay like that. We have had some ups, and to many downs. But it just makes us closer. You not
like my sister. You are my sister.
Love forever and always,
dear hurrican earl,
You highly dissapointed me last night. I was actually looking foward to a hurrican, like in Wizard of Oz. I was waiting for my house to start spinning and shit. But no, it just rained. You know, i wanted to go out last night, but no, i couldnt cause my mom get parionoid and said that it would be to dangerous to leave the house. So thanks hurrican earl, for making my night suck.